& a whole new heart, all over again.

“My heart keeps vying for other things.”

That line is so true of my life, and my circumstance just right now. Every time I should be doing something I know I should, things just pile up in my mind, in my way and I hasten to place them neatly before discovering time’s running out. Every time I set to do something, with real determination, it gets beaten down halfway through. Oh Lord, I need self-control.

Somehow I lose all peace within day by day, day by day. And I think that shouldn’t be happening, yet it is. I know I should be going back to God, trudging back as best as i can yet the legs hang heavy here in the mud. Yknw I have dreams yet right now at the ripe age of seventeen going eighteen, I am stuck and wondering how to move on.

I know my Lord gives me the strength to go on and do life, but I just think that these insignificant daily events shouldn’t be that hard to live, isn’t it?