begin to see the lack of depth.

Okay forget what I wrote a week back about it being homey and all having food at home. I am a glutton, especially at this time of the month because I eat, and eat, and ate non-stop. There’s currently alot of high sugar level foods like ICE CREAM THE KILLER, cheesecake, left over dinner, SNACKS THE SUCKER, etc. No, I never do want food at home anymore. No snacks. No food. Zilch.

However a remedy to all that binge eating is also known as Greg the Humanoid. He tells me of working out, and having the determination while I was whining about my dislike of running like a dog chasing after its own tail round after round, and guess what – I did EXACTLY just that.

There are seasons I thrive, and there are seasons I wilt. Times when I do extremely well, and times I want to hole up somewhere. Gaining strength, growing strength.

Hokay Law and Project Management tomorrow, let’s be proactive while hoping for the best.

As tagged by Dalinah & Esther:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs &
replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. How has blogger changed your life?
It didn’t.

2. Do you daydream and if you do what do you usually find yourself ‘dreaming’ about?
Yes I do. I stone. Emo. Anything.

3. What do you want to be when you grow up?
A writer. It has not changed. It never did. But of course, not hopes, but actions.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Scotland/ Ireland. I grew up reading stories about it.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
The first.

6. What is your opinion on eating meat?
My meals usually consist of 2 servings of veg, and 1 serving of meat.

7. Do you trust easily?
No.

8. Choose between thongs or g-string?
Why not the third option – none.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Relationships.

10. What is your worst quality?
Procrastination.

11. What is happiness?
It is temporary.

12. How do you see yourself?
I have changed.

13. What do you wish to change about yourself?
I want to walk the talk.

14. Do you think about sex often?
Winks. (HAHAHHA)

15. What would you do if you won the lottery?
That’s a – very good question! Shrugs, tithing, savings, spend, treat.

15. Would you rather be in a happy marriage and poor or a bad marriage and rich?
Happy.

16. Before you go to sleep, what do you usually think about?
The most significant incident of the day.

17. Where do broken hearts go?
Behind closed doors.

18. Do you believe in God?
Yes.

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
No.

20. What were your parents going to name you if you’d been born the opposite gender?
Well I hope they call me Gabriel.

You’re Enough.

One thing that hits me again and again – God’s love for me is far and above what I can and cannot do.

I can’t comprehend that and I still cannot because I don’t see any logical reason in that. Yeah I may have all the explanations and analogies in the world, but I am still pretty much incredulous that His love is constant, even through the ups and downs. They say change is the only constant, but I think, i know! Christ’s love far supersedes that. (Oh, what an understatement. Will an exclamation mark prove my point further?)

Do you not get it – it is constant. Not changing, never. Always the same, even through your bitterest moments, through the down-est time in your life. Tell me, how can that be. I’m sorry, but I think I need a whole lifetime and beyond to grasp this concept.

As for right now, Lord what can I say. From the bottom of my heart, thanks, and thanks again for Your faithfulness when I’ve failed to reciprocate.

For the vulnerable:

it happens to us all.

Even if it feels wrong.

UPDATE.

Ah yeah, an update: I did go for the Biennale meeting yesterday. It was a little nerve wrecking, but I guess everything settled itself. I guess also that there’s the perceived commitment now. Hopefully there are not many mistakes to be made, and I’d be just able to enjoy the experience.

Also, I figured out why the brownie was so cakey. I used cocoa powder instead of melted chocolate! Ahh.. maybe another time – a few months down the road?

And, a very happy birthday Xue Ting! You’re 13 now, and I hope you enjoy your day very, very, very much! You are indeed a very treasured asset in the caregroup. I look forward to seeing you soon! And, when’s shepherding ah? :)

Something More (than squatting ducks).

Do not hope. Do something. Success comes only if you take the step forward towards your dream. Hoping simply means you wait and see.

- Tan Peng Kwee

I was wondering whether to proceed on with tomorrow’s Biennale meeting, but when I saw this comment I knew I couldn’t be wishy-washy anymore. As of right now – yes I am going for it.

So many of us have dreams. Ambitions. But I always think that it’d land into my waiting lap. I know it won’t, but subconsciously I was always willing to take on a wait-and-see approach.

Turning 18, this kind of life cannot continue. If I want to move on and make an impact.

treats!

Sunday was spent baking and slacking in at home. It was good, because I hardly do that. The banana bread was moist, like muffin but the brownie was too cakey, not brownie-ish. That’s rather sad because the display was really pretty..

I always have this mentality that kitchen equates food, and good food at that.  Think of sweet desserts on dinner table! Yet for a long time now, there are only raw food in its state and well I’m glad that’s meditated now.